Martell Holt’s actions made him out to be the villain in many Love & Marriage: Huntsville viewers’ eyes. The once-successful custom home builder turned reality TV star’s multiyear affair led to the demise of his marriage to Melody Shari. Now, Martell says his mistress didn’t provide half of what he received from his wife.

He regrets his affair, explaining Melody gave him the majority of what he needed/wanted but he desired more

Martell alleges that he complained to Melody about her not giving him enough attention, focusing too much on work, not cooking enough, and not satisfying him sexually as often as he preferred. As a result, he sought what he says he was lacking in his marriage from another woman. 

He eventually entered into a seven-year relationship with Arionne Curry, and the two have a son conceived while he was still married to Melody.

In fact, Curry’s son and Martell and Melody’s youngest daughter aren’t even a year apart.

In retrospect, Martell says he wouldn’t have made the same decision. He also explained that in the grand scheme of things, Melody was giving him more of what he yearned for. Urban Belle Mag reports that Martell spoke on such in a recent panel discussion alongside Hollywood Unlocked’s Jason Lee and Tammy Rivera.

“I think that was very foolish of me to do such a thing. But at that time, I wasn’t thinking like, oh my wife she’s giving me 85 percent and she’s giving me 15 or whatever,” he said.

He continued, adding that his decision to cheat was immature at best. Looking back, he wishes he would have handled things differently.

“I wasn’t thinking like that. If I would have thought like that, I don’t want that d*mn 15 percent,” he said. “I’ma stick in this house and sit my a*s down somewhere. But that wasn’t the case. I think that I just wasn’t thinking.” 

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